Wee, it’s a bumpy ride! Last week, up 3.6, this week, down 3.0, for a total loss of 107.6. I’m edging toward my little goal of 50 kg, which is 110 lost, and have decided on my next little goal: 40% of my original weight lost, which is 115.
These little magic numbers are helping me keep the fear and trepidation away. Those of you just starting your journey might be surprised that I’m scared. Of what?!? You’d think the scary part is done.
But I’ve already made so many changes. I’m nearly vegetarian now, I check my portions, I track my food, I exercise regularly, I eat more fruits and vegetables than I ever thought I could. I plan what I’m going to cook every week, make a list, and prepare it all on the weekend so I don’t have to cook during the week. I’ve got the office snacking demon under control (if not exorcised altogether), and sugar is bedeviling me less as well.
These are all changes I like and that I can live with. But that’s a lot of changes. What more do I have to do?!? Aren’t these changes enough? Isn’t losing 107 lbs enough? If I have to make more changes, would they be changes I could live with, or would I be dieting?
At 5’6″ and 178, I have a BMI of 29: overweight. I started at a BMI of 46. I’m a size 14 on the bottom, and a 8 on the top (don’t ask, I come from the land of the pear people). I talked to my dr about an ideal weight for me, and he suggested I still lose a few more.
155 is the high end for my height, so even if you believe the BMI is bogus as a means of measuring individuals (and I do) I still have a ways to go. 165 is probably plenty for me.
But I’m scared. What else will I have to change? And will it be change I can sustain?
