Wee, it’s a bumpy ride! Last week, up 3.6, this week, down 3.0, for a total loss of 107.6. I’m edging toward my little goal of 50 kg, which is 110 lost, and have decided on my next little goal: 40% of my original weight lost, which is 115.
These little magic numbers are helping me keep the fear and trepidation away. Those of you just starting your journey might be surprised that I’m scared. Of what?!? You’d think the scary part is done.
But I’ve already made so many changes. I’m nearly vegetarian now, I check my portions, I track my food, I exercise regularly, I eat more fruits and vegetables than I ever thought I could. I plan what I’m going to cook every week, make a list, and prepare it all on the weekend so I don’t have to cook during the week. I’ve got the office snacking demon under control (if not exorcised altogether), and sugar is bedeviling me less as well.
These are all changes I like and that I can live with. But that’s a lot of changes. What more do I have to do?!? Aren’t these changes enough? Isn’t losing 107 lbs enough? If I have to make more changes, would they be changes I could live with, or would I be dieting?
At 5’6″ and 178, I have a BMI of 29: overweight. I started at a BMI of 46. I’m a size 14 on the bottom, and a 8 on the top (don’t ask, I come from the land of the pear people). I talked to my dr about an ideal weight for me, and he suggested I still lose a few more.
155 is the high end for my height, so even if you believe the BMI is bogus as a means of measuring individuals (and I do) I still have a ways to go. 165 is probably plenty for me.
But I’m scared. What else will I have to change? And will it be change I can sustain?
Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit
August 24, 2009 at 8:59 am
I wrote about this subject this weekend. My fear has more to do with my propensity to zone out and somehow forget what got me to my goals. I slowly start acting a fool and it snowballs into a life-ruining mess. I’m hoping blogging and the support of this online community will keep me focused and on my game.
Excellent post.
jennifer york
August 24, 2009 at 9:11 am
for me, the fear is having no more excuses why I can’t do things that I may not really want to do…or no more excuses for why someone may not like me….It’s easy when I can say it’s because I’m fat…not so easy when I have to actually look at myself.
Dr. J
August 28, 2009 at 1:05 pm
Hi!
I saw your link on calorielab and came by! You’ve done a nice job with your blog, and with your self! You mention what else you can do. I don’t know what level of exercise you do, but I imagine you have the eating part down, so I would look there to help you lose that last little bit. Not knowing what you do as I said, I offer that you walk, or increase your walking 1 mile/day. Do it outside, and in a nice place if you can so it’s more fun. Also consider decreasing tour sodium intake. Best!
Wendy
August 28, 2009 at 1:27 pm
Thanks for stopping by! I love your column. I do several classes a week-a cardio boot camp 2x, and a kickboxing class 2x. I think you’re right about more exercise, though. I’m going to try more walking on the “off” days.