Last night was Not Good. I had a bad day, and consoled myself by eating everything in the kitchen. Fortunately, my kitchen is somewhat binge-proofed, so what that added up to was eating FiberOne cereal and one point bars.
Still, not what I was wanting. So, here’s why I think I did it, and what I’m going to do differently next time.
1. Frustrating day. For some reason, my computer was slow as can be all day long, making it next to impossible to do anything. I kept plugging at it though, and sat there and stewed and opened up even more programs to do something else while it was thinking hard on the first thing, which probably wasn’t helpful.
Music might have smoothed out the edges, but instead of walking out to the car to get the ipod I forgot there, or opening Pandora, I decided it was time to download Itunes and download Grooveelectric (which is an awesome music podcast) to my desktop. Yes, that was a brilliant decision when my computer was already boggy. Needless to say, the installation failed three times, I had to uninstall and reinstall blah blah blah.
What I’ll do differently next time: Take a walk. Even if it’s down the hall. Waiting and pushing the any key for hours wasn’t helping. I couldn’t change my computer, but I could change my attitude.
2. Meh workout. The good news was I went to the gym, even though I Really Didn’t Feel Like it. The bad news was that I didn’t really push myself as hard as I normally would, and I didn’t feel like I got as good of a workout.
What I’ll do differently next time: Commit to where I’m at. I’m at the gym, so I need to fully commit to where I’m at and what I’m doing.
3. Cruddy kids. One needed everything RIGHT NOW. Dinner, water, pencil sharpened, you name it, all at the same time. Then the fight over what to do after dinner–video game or TV? The last straw was the gum battle. Sam wanted gum, and, beleaguered parent I was tired of fielding requests, I said no. Well, that started a long confrontation where Sam yelled at me, pretended (but not actually) punched and kicked me, threatened to kill me, and all the other wonderful ways five year olds express their extreme displeasure. I dodged all this while getting another 100 calorie bag of cookies out of the cupboard.
What I’ll do differently next time: Give him the damn gum! He was already frustrated about not getting his way in the game/TV battle, and he wanted the gum to help regulate himself. There was no reason for me not to let him have it other than being frustrated about all the other requests of the evening.
So that was my binge. What are your binge triggers? How do you deal with them?
